I've been cruising through some groups on FB and have found a considerable number of "perfect" subs and "perfect" D/s relationships. How pleasant it must be to have not ever have had to work to get your dynamic and relationship the way you want it and need it to be! Seriously, several uppity subs ganged up on a gentleman who asked how to help his submissive overcome some bad habits caused by years of mental abuse by a family member. Their Dominants stood by and instead of reprimanding their subs for speaking so callously to another Dominant seeking help, forced this Dominant to apologize for offending the very submissives that first insulted both him and his submissive. Calling him an abuser...a fake Dom...etc...All for expressing concern, asking for help and expressing his frustration at being confused as to what to do.
I see this quite often and it aggravates me no end. imagining clothes pinning their tongues to their cheeks
Not one relationship is perfect! BDSM and D/s dynamics are not cure alls. You cannot blame your Dominant for not being able to fix you. When going into any relationship, you must first know and accept yourself before expecting anyone else to know you and accept you for who you are.
Sir and I have worked incredibly hard to make our marriage, our relationship, our D/s dynamic, work lives and family life all tie in. It still isn't seamless. Yes, I submit to Him. Yes, I allow Him to do all manor of things to me and I enjoy all of them. Does this mean He doesn't annoy me sometimes see sleeping in until well after noon and not changing diapers, or that I do not annoy Him sometimes see being grumpy every morning and being overly emotional at the smallest things? Of course not! We are ever working on our relationship. We will always be working on it. It's what makes Us, Us. Our beautiful imperfection.
He still does not put forth as much Dominance as I would like Him to, but He is working on it. Between His two part time jobs and trying to balance our lifestyle with the raising of children, I can understand sometimes why He holds back a little. I'm also working on controlling my emotional outbursts and am trying to be more outgoing so that I can find some new friends. Mine have become flaky and unreliable.
Perhaps it is the birthday coming about in the next few days that is making me so emotionally wrecked? I'm not sure. I do know that I hate the fact that I am growing older. I honestly thought I would never make it past my mid twenties. Well, here I am, sitting on the precipice of 32. Growing older does not make me think of the wisdom that comes with age. It makes me think that I now have allergies to foods I once loved...that I can no longer do the acrobatics I used to do(I was a dancer) and that now I hear my joints cracks every morning. It makes me think of my children growing older and as proud as I will be when they are men (and my one little lady) and have families of their own, it makes me want to stop time and hold them in my arms forever.
Wow! This post took a considerable down turn didn't it?
One last complaint before I upswing again *chuckles*. I love my short hair for the ease of it, but am really starting to miss the diversity of styles I could do with even my usual angled bob hairstyle I wore for many years. The problem? Sir loves the short pixie cut on me. I have no idea how to work around that.
All in all, things are going well with us. Life has come to the fore front with work and seeking out a new home and friends. I know it will all even out in the end and perhaps a fresh start in a new place will do all of us wonders! Until then, I will be plodding along, serving my Sir,being a housewife and a Mom.
Love to all!
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